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ya know [] [ mood | loved ] you can look at it in two different ways. In the eyes of a pessimist or the eyes of an optimist. Usually i'm always looking on the downside or pointing out all the mistakes and things that could be altered and made better, but today is different. Life couldn't be any better. I have the most caring, wonderful, and loving boyfriend (Happy anniversary love). Everything gets tough and even right now it's hard, but I'll get over it, just like I have before. WAMPPP

[] [ mood | worried ] [ music | mae-giving it away ] Nervousness is possibly the worse feeling I've ever experienced. I hate how I feel right now. It's all in the pit of my stomach. Waiting and wondering makes me collapse. WAMPPP

[] I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned. And I have to speculate that God Himself did make us into corresponding shapes like puzzle pieces from the clay. And true it may seem like a stretch but it's thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away and when I am missing you to death. And when you are out there on the road for several weeks of shows and when you scan the radio I hope this song will guide you home. they will see us waving from such great heights "come down now" they'll say but everything looks perfect from far away "come down now" but we'll stay WAMPPP

[] I don't remember the last time that I felt this lonely. I'm really too weak to deal with this. WAMPPP

for the most part [] yesterday was amazing. :) Once ron go out of work him and I went up to the mall and got chicken and rice :) and of course i had my mac n cheese, which was sooooooooooo goood. then, we went to the movies and saw John tucker must die. i thought it was going to be reallys tupid but it ended up being pretty funny. Afer that we just came back to my house and watched tv. good day :) today i'm going to the folk festival with ron and courtney for like 5 hours...this should be fun. WAMPPP

[] [ mood | crushed ] I'm not excited for what's going to happen soon. WAMPPP

[] [ mood | blah ] I felt the need to update since my previous one was boring. SO lately I havn't been doing anything THAT exciting. Yesterday I went fishing with my dad brother cousin and ron. I got sick the majority of the time and went inside the boat to try to sleep. Then ron came in later on and we fell asleep in awkward and painful positions on that oh so uncomfortable boat. I was sick all last night, well not puking sick, but my stomach hurt like a bitch. I feel a little better today. I'm going camping with courtney at four until sunday. that's a long time away from ronaldo :). i'm such a nerd. i'll deal. redcvkjdfg hlkfdjg df,gkjdfh dsjkdk/ k WAMPPP

[] i dreamt you married me, i kissed you and began our own eternity, i dreamt you married me, yeah and then i woke up in reality, and it was just a dream, i know that forever is too much to ask, it was the best dream i've ever had, and i will leave it at that... 3 SHWINGG WAMPPP

[] [ mood | worried ] [ music | Don't die cindy-unclothed and honest ] I have this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach. I'm not feeling too well. I just want to see him. WAMPPP

[] got my permit today :) WAMPPP

[] [ mood | drained ] I really hate feeling this way. and I really can't stand people sometimes. certain people that is. whatever i don't care. today was too good to care. Went to six flags with courtney<333. Lots ah fun. cept for the blisteres on my feet from walking around for like 10 hours. I pretty much spent $80 on food. i'm good. she made me go on the superman ride and i was close to pissing my pants. w/e it wasn't that bad, but i'll stick with batman. haha. i'm way too tired to be awake. WAMPPP

best feeling in the world ladies and gents [] [ mood | loved ] I love him so much. It's like everyday i'm with him I fall in love with him over and over again. He's my everything and I couldn't imagine being without him. gahhhhh. i'm such a doof. 1 SHWINGG WAMPPP

[] I can't deal with this anymore. leave it up to me to make everything go downhill kudos to loosing fucking everything jill. nice going 5 SHWINGG WAMPPP

no doubt I have the best boyfriend in the world. [] [ mood | content ] He takes me out for ice cream and mini golfing :) He sings kelly clarkson while driving with me :) He teaches me a song on the guitar and listens to me play it although i'm terrible :) He takes stupid pictures with me :) He gives me little kisses that brighten my day :) He's AMAZING. 1 SHWINGG WAMPPP

You never commented on the things that really count. [] [ mood | drained ] [ music | bright eyes-perfect sonnet ] I fell asleep with a huge migrane last night because of how much I was crying yesterday. I'm not about to just end my happiness because of one day though. Yeah, my moms a big part of my life, but if we're not all mother and daughter loving any more thats not going to be the end of the world. Yesterday was horrible. Came home around 7, argued, and cried for about 3 hours. Then my mom probably couldn't handle me because I'm such a bad person, so she sent my dad up to talk to me.. MY DAD. out of all fucking people. I pretty much confessed to him how i think he's a bad dad and doesn't know how to talk to me so why bother. He asked how he should be a better dad. I replied with "your the DAD, why don't YOU figure it out" Maybe I was a little harsh, but when your as emotional as i was and theres peopel coming after you blaming you for everything, your going to react in a bad way. So after that I Couldn't go out or have anyone in. I had no one to talk to of course. Went to bed at like 10 because i couldn't stand my head hurting as badly as it did, woke up sweating once ron called me at 12. i'm sure i had a fever, then went back to bed because i didn't feel like talking. things suck right now. i have too much on my mind. i'm really worried and don't have the energy to even talk about it. 2 SHWINGG WAMPPP

[] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | bright eyes- it's cool, we can still be friends. ] I'm a terrible person. 3 SHWINGG WAMPPP

SUMMERS here [] [ mood | content ] and I'm feeling pretty good about it. Hopefully I'll see my friends much more than i did during the school year. :) 2 SHWINGG WAMPPP

really good day [] [ mood | tired ] I chilled with my favorite people today :). So I woke up and went to school at the regular time which was very pointless, checked into hr and left. Went to mcdonalds with amy ron courtney and phil and the food was disgusting. then we went back to courtneys house and watched american pie 2 and looked at the largest dick on google?...haha Then, like most weekends I had bertucci's. me ron seth rob and courtney went and stuffed our faces. then we came back to my house, swam, got SLURPIES,and now i'm here. and my computer pretty much sucks. and i'm tired. peace. 1 SHWINGG WAMPPP

[] [ mood | drained ] today was good. well for the most part, except a big part was bad. so i guess you can say it was 50/50. I went over courtneys after my small period of time at school and we basically walked around for hours on end. i hung out with people i havn't seen foreverrr. it was good. i'm exhausted though and fully aware of how out of shape i am. eh i miss him. 1 SHWINGG WAMPPP

I wish I remembered how to fix my layout.. [] [ mood | exhausted ] I havn't actually written in this thing for a very long time. But i'm definetly bored. i can't stop thinking about everything and how wrong it might turn out. I'm so afraid of loosing him. Everyone tells me it will be alright and he won't be far but they have no idea how much I rely on my time with him. I can count on one hand how many of my friends actually care for me and that's discluding some fingers. Ronnie is the only person keeping me up and going. I can't stand the fact that this might all go downhill and end up with me being depressed again. I don't favor that side of me and don't want to see it again. Hopefully I'll grow some balls and stop being so emotional about this all. 2 SHWINGG WAMPPP

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